Trez and I

Trez, my partner, as I've mentioned in earlier posts, is my blockmate. We started the relationship in Oct of 2006.

That Day

We were in my condo near our school trying to do our respective papers for school. That's because we hang out at my place most of the time, my blockmates I mean. The whole block has considered my place their home near school. It's where we'd mostly hang ot in long breaks, have sleepovers for project-making, watch movies, and a lot more. But during that day, it was only I and Trez.

He came on to me. A few months back, I asked if i could borrow his phone. He said yes with a "Huwag mo bubuksan inbox ha?" I mean come on, who wouldn't after being told such? So i did. And there i found out he had a boyfriend then. I was shocked, i knew his bf.

Back to my place. We were both lying chest down on my bed with our laptops in front of us. Usual guy talk, kalibugan. We were makulit, very physically makulit. Pero hindi naman dahil sa kalandian, pero honestly, our entire block is really like that. Sobrang touchy kami lahat. Kahit nga yung hottest girl sa block, and possibly in our batch, umuupo lang sa hita ko kahit parang 2 inches below the belt lang ang palda nya. And sa block namin, ok lang yun. It's sorta normal already. So ayun nga kami kulitan ni Trez until, he put his hand inside my briefs and took it out agad. SHOCKED! CONFIRMED!

So there. With my recent break-up with my last girlfriend then, I was kind of longing for the feeling of human warmth against my body. The feeling of warm saliva running through my...

Then...

HOW?

Kelan ko nalaman na bi ako? Ewan

I went to an all boys Catholic school in the province. Tanungin mo ko kung mabigat ang bangko, pero I have to say, I was with the "IN" crowd - the people you're supposed to be seen with, the "cool" guys, the people secretly admired and wanted to be with and to be like. 

Our group was a big one, we were like 20 guys. It's a mix different personalities. Most of the people in the group were basketball varsity members playing for the school, one was the valedictorian of the batch, the other was the saluto...salutu...basta yung runner up haha., and ako, ako yung ayaw pero gusto ng mga teachers. Malabo no? Ako yung matalinong gago. My teachers then used to get mad at me kasi sinasayang ko daw sarili ko. I remember this one time when my Physics teacher in senior year was so mad at me that I was too lazy, that she made me the representative of our class for the yearly Physics quiz bee, para daw mapilitan mag-aral. The day of the quiz bee came, the other contestants were reviewing their asses off, taking their midnight oil with them to school for overtime, while I was playing fusball with my barkada. At the end of the day, 2nd place. That's me then.

I distinctively remember having a crush on my bestfriend (male) then - very typical. But during that time, I wasn't sure, or maybe I was just denying, that i LIKE him. Most weekends the barkada would go out, rent a villa, have a party, go to concerts, or just tambay on people's houses. We'd often do sleepovers becasue of alcohol and having too much fun together. When we'd sleep, I'd always make it a point to lie beside him.

One time, I just felt this stupid urge to caress him. So I did. I never felt my heart beat so hard and fast. It feels like my heart's trying to escape myself. But, it felt good. Just caressing his arms was. Baduy, pero natulog na ako.

The next time we had a sleepover, I had to caress him again. It was this urge again. But this time, I was aiming another part of himself. Yes, THAT part. This time I thought  to myself "Shit, I AM gay" I didn't do it. It was just too much for me. The thought itself of me being gay was enough to call it a night.

Happy Birthday!

Hello WORLD!!!

This marks the birth of my, sad to say, real self.

I am a discreet bisexual guy. I am 20 years old. Currently, I am a graduating student of the university who knows no color other than blue.

What's my story? I have a partner! And for this blog, i shall refer to him as "Trez." I dunno why, I just love the name. That's the name I'll be giving my child in the future. (See, I am complicated)

Trez and I are blockmates. We've known each other since freshman year (2004) and became officially together October of 2006. 

NO ONE in our block knows about our relationship. But, of course, there are the usual teases regarding our being too close. See, we are with each other all the time. We virtually have the same schedule (intentional) and classes (again)

So this blog will be my channel of expression. Whenever I feel happy or sad or whatever about our relationship, I have no one to talk to. I have no one to share it with except him. 

Expect my stories the following days!

Hope you guys frequent this site.

THANKS!!!

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